I picked up KPop from a Starcraft tribute video
Swallow my sorrow or feed it to GFP Tom.
The things people throw out.
Today, it is Raining.
I look on and I realize that victory is inevitable, their victory is inevitable. I could be there with them on the battlefield. I could be at their sides defeating the enemies. I could be there in the cheering crowds. I could be with them in OUR triumph. But it wasn’t meant for me and I wasn’t meant for it. I chose a different path. I see that their success came without my presence or influence. I see that they can succeed without me. I’m different from all of them. I’m not meant for glory. But I am happy that at one point on this run, I was a part of them, that I did make a difference at some point. The fact remains, however, they have risen above me and I lost my spot here. I have money and I have life. I will find my way, with whatever is in my wallet and my loyal laptop. There is no time for tears or regrets. My decision is made. Goodbye. ***life.
Where did all the hope go?
Some one save me.
I do not like pain, but I do love the exhilaration
I have quite a few number of plushies for a guy
Why I own all these animals, I do not know why
Bless the animals that I did not collect
They would likely die from my neglect
My focus is lost in a world of words that don’t make sense
And the duties I shouldered fearing their consequence
So many wish they had my 20/20 vision sight
I would compromise it if they could see my fright
I’m labeled as no feeling, all surface
Behind the walls, I lost my purpose
It sucks, not understanding myself
Sucked more when I lost my wealth
Chemistry, chemistry… explain to me why a newspaper can block radiation.
Why do I have the worst timing ever?
Mother’s Day for Christmas
I haven’t been home for the longest time. I thought I was detached from the place until I crumbled under my emotions when I came back today. I had no money left and barely enough money for a swipe but I managed to get home without hopping turnstiles. (thanks dante). Going back to the restaurant on a rainy day wasn’t pleasant, but out was home. Working next to my parents was still familiar to me. It was nice. When we closed and went home, my dad went straight to sleep from a tiring day, but my mom stayed up to do some extra chores. I stayed up with her and she started talking to me like she always does. But this time was different. I remember I used to think that it was going to be another one of her lectures; this time it felt like she was reaching out to me. I felt the burden on her heart as she combed her hair back with her fingers. Is she trying out a new look? She poured some of her heart out on me. I held it in my hands, and I wanted to cry. I realized how much I missed her after all this time. I will carry you just a you carried me as a child. I will show you Europe on a vacation. I will do something I love to do as my future. I will transcend my past, my circumstances, and my labels. I am proud to have you. I love you mom.
