February 2012
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January 2012
2 posts
I do not like pain, but I do love the exhilaration
I have quite a few number of plushies for a guy
Why I own all these animals, I do not know why
Bless the animals that I did not collect
They would likely die from my neglect
My focus is lost in a world of words that don’t make sense
And the duties I shouldered fearing their consequence
So many wish they had my 20/20 vision sight
I would compromise it if they could see my fright
...
Why do I have the worst timing ever?
December 2011
8 posts
Mother's Day for Christmas
I haven’t been home for the longest time. I thought I was detached from the place until I crumbled under my emotions when I came back today. I had no money left and barely enough money for a swipe but I managed to get home without hopping turnstiles. (thanks dante). Going back to the restaurant on a rainy day wasn’t pleasant, but out was home. Working next to my parents was still...
I can't help it
GAY TURTLES TURN ME ON. LIKE YONA BAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
I place my sadness, my doubts, my fears, my anger, into you God. I will trust you in my times of joy and in my times of darkness. I will persevere in You. I will be strong with your strength. Break me and make me new again. My wings are withered, my crown is broken, my robes are torn. I come to you as I am, a broken and effed up boy. I want to love You, even in my time of need. I am Your son, Your...
stumbleawaydontaskwhy asked: Loser.
November 2011
9 posts
King
There’s a whole side of who I am that I never knew. A side of me I would have never found on my own. The depth of my history completely shocked me. But it was hidden from me. My mom protected me from this past and raised me disregarding all of those facts. What kind of person would I have been if I knew all of it? Would I have survived with the massive burden of my upbringing? There are so...
It does not mean I’m afraid. It means I go anyway.
I’ve made a fatal mistake. I almost killed my soul. But God, you showed me grace. You created another clutch moment for me. God you love me so much.
I don’t believe in wishes, but just in case, I wish that I would be able to trust you fully, faithfully, and unconditionally.
Did the 40 thousand mean anything to you? Did you even consider it? I knew I was standing in thin ice. I knew that things could completely fall through. I worked, I slaved, I studied, I learned, I saw that there could be a light at the end of this dark tunnel. But you didn’t follow through for me. Was it wrong to dream such a grand dream? Is it completely ridiculous to pursue the future I...
stumbleawaydontaskwhy asked: Why are you such a loser -___-
Thank You God. :)
October 2011
20 posts
Helen: I'm sad.
John: 5,001 bubble teas for you!!!
Helen: I don't want that right now.
John: Pineapple boner?
I'm the kind of guy
who breaks promises, doesn’t understand stuff, doesn’t know how to be serious, acts like a wall, is inconsiderate, is unthoughtful, is incapable of higher thinking, and hurts other people.
I need to have a heart for others.
I like Randy Blue
You guys should check it out.
even after ive been hanging out with so many cool people im still not cool myself ):
sad life.
-John Chen
Beauty for Ashes
God, I come to you as I am, my body mildly incapacitated from illness, my mind drained of energy, my heart under attack by the enemy. This is a whole new level of darkness. I now see it and recognize it as it forms in front of me. God you have put me through trials and tests to refine me from my own self. Now I think you’re showing me the next level, the ones around me. I remember you called...
4D
Name it.
This doesn’t need a name. This shouldn’t have a name. This shouldn’t even exist. I thought I dealt with it in the past, but it only hid away behind all the achievements and blessings. I didn’t want to see it okay, so I turned a blind eye to it, hoping that maybe it would go away. But this cancer will never go away. One bad cell in my soul hid behind the corners of my life,...
Thank You =)
You can lean on my shoulders Take a rest, Give me a smile.
“One day, the poor will be so poor, that the only thing left to eat is the rich.”
– PhillyD
I'm a fattie.
I am so whipped it’s not even funny.
I love hot Asian men like Nickhun. And the rest of 2pm.
I AM GAY. :DDD
Yuna’s manlier than I am. Sighhh.
Yep.
And I snore like a pig when I sleep. All of Weinstein can hear me. Sighhhhhhhh.
And I’m such a creeper. I pedo on little girls when they sleep with my pedobear claws.
Then I get high every night. EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT.
And then...
purplepoopieface asked: why are you so cool :D
Why?
Because you made the impossible, possible.
“I’m a graduate student”
“I’m from Columbia”
“I’m a business BA”
“I’m a med student”
All: “Can you fix my wifi for me?”
Me: “Hell yeah I can!”
These people are so impressive.
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Thinking and writing is fun.
Writing the essay is fun.
I’m high!
High on life!
““I like my weapons how I like my music,
HEAVY AND METAL””
– Master of Metal Mordekaiser
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September 2011
21 posts
I'M SUCH A LOSER
BLARGHHH
Why can't I be cool
Cool like Yuna ]:
I'm not sleeping tonight.
God, you are amazing. You’ve given me my entire world, my happiness, my everything and blessed it all. It’s almost too good to believe, but God I know that you do amazing, even absurdly amazing things. God, I just can’t comprehend how much you’ve given me and how much you love me. I just hope and pray for protection and covering of my heart. I don’t want this to get...
Real
:)
Wub Wub Wub
You are a cinema
I could watch you forever
Action, thriller
I could watch you forever
You are a cinema
A Hollywood treasure
Love you, just the way you are
A cinema
This isn't who you are
You didn’t go through 18 years of pain and suffering and work and dedication and investment to fly through life like this. I will not let you screw this up John just for your pleasures and fun. You have had enough and its time to focus on what you have to do. I will not tell you again, because by then, it will be too late, but GET YOUR FUCKING HEAD TOGETHER. You shouldn’t be afraid of...
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Have I Found You, Flightless Bird?: Anxiety →
stumbleawaydontaskwhy:
Sometimes I have to stop and wonder if what I’m doing, what I want to do in the future, for the future, is the right thing for me to do. The environment. We all grew up hearing that it’s everything to us, everything we need. We all grew up hearing about recycling, throwing our garbage out…
People can say things that can discourage you from the course of life you...
I LOVE GAY PORN!!!:D
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