Beauty for Ashes
God, I come to you as I am, my body mildly incapacitated from illness, my mind drained of energy, my heart under attack by the enemy. This is a whole new level of darkness. I now see it and recognize it as it forms in front of me. God you have put me through trials and tests to refine me from my own self. Now I think you’re showing me the next level, the ones around me. I remember you called me to be a light that shines in the darkness in the hearts of others as I was able to conquer my own darkness. Now you’ve started me on the process of refining me through this. I can’t say I didn’t see this coming. New chapters in life means new challenges and temptations. God I want to accept this calling. I want to continue to fight the darkness that still may be in my heart, but also in the hearts of others. I want you to be my light that will guide me on this next step on my journey closer to you. I want you to be my endless source of motivation that will push me pass all the walls that will get in the way. I want you to protect my heart and the hearts of those around me against the schemes of the enemy that aim to destroy everything that you’ve built up. I want to be the beacon of hope that will guide everyone back to you. I want to become a man of You that will represent You to everyone.
It’s hard God. I’am only human. I have my limits and my own desires. The enemy is out to get me. But even if I break, I will never shatter. With you in the center of my heart, there is nothing that can stand in my way. The tribulations will knock me around and eventually leave me on my knees, but You gave me feet to stand up again.
You lifted me high. You supported me. You were the One I could lean on when my arms and legs were tired. I want to represent that to others. I want to be a pillar of support for others. I want to show everyone what you did for me.
God I lift up my life as well as the lives of those around me up to You. I leave them in your hands. Be my strength so that I may be the strength to those around me. Take control of my life again.
